sImpLe affiniTy...

2006-01-01T22:16:00.000-08:00

miniature museum: i love the european style setting of houses, its so exquisite! nice rite..

oh no..i think im getting lazier, i dun feel like posting after 1 pic, but i think its an achievement as i managed to remember my password and user name by trial and error. promise - shall post more..

well a brand new year and another year has passed, the last year has been good to me, extremely good to be exact. im extremely grateful for the fulfilling year i had - 2 good sems in which my cap improves, extremely pleased. - had a very fulfilling 3 mths break with plenty of fun and work. the two usually doesnt go together but well the temp job at cpf has both of it. know some realli nice frenzs there. unexpected of a temp job i guess. a very fun and rewarding dec hols..been out for consecutively like 3 weeks! haha..super broke now. plus the trip to taiwan!! its an unbelievable beautiful place and really not wad i had imagined.

will post more pics. picture tells a thousand words. tata

2005-09-15T20:53:00.000-07:00

- broke -

due to my vainess (made a new spec), my greediness (ate exp) and the hair dye (peanut butter) im broke haha, wads the date now? oh man its only mid mth, i hope i can survive. i swiped my mini and it works and my frenz said i act cute using that teeny winny card..but its cute! no doubt abt it.

well well, better get back to my books! whee^^

2005-09-11T17:28:00.000-07:00

- bz -

this coming week will be torturous starting frm today, i will survive! plenty of stuff to accomplish before the deadlines~~ewww...cant imagine man haha anw read this line in this paper and i think it made real sense. - Are you in love with the person or with the concept of being in love - how true, and if its the latter, i rather be how i am now -happy-

the bbq was qt fun, but den the ppl were different so therefore i guess the dynamics are also slightly different which cause my quiet, true self to surface? haha..anw its gd meeting them after a long while but i still prefer the prev bbq i had with scandal-us club, much more fun? umm..but on another note its gd tt they plan some kind of gathering or else i guess we will hardly/nv meet? whee..well shld i book a chalet?

2005-09-09T00:00:00.000-07:00

- neglect -

not me..but my blog. been real busy man lately so cant really blame me. check out kennysia.com think its real funny esp the shit entry..haha this sem has definitely been much better for me as firstly, there are no grp projects! whee..secondly, i've not been lagging too far behind..gd thing i suppose and i know wad im studying..haha surprise surprise..and so far my quizzes have been alrite..hope tt continues for the whole sem..so many wishes but overall still alrite. but im so tired man

tata

2005-09-03T10:43:00.000-07:00

- the material me -

haha..i never imagine i will write an entry like this but well its me, and anything can happen. currently i love my uob debit mini, my nike sneakers, and of course my kappa denim bag. oh my, suddenly have an obsession with all material goods, and why not? it makes me happy. i think my fav will be the debit card cos its simply so small and cute and most importantly of all - its free and just simply looking at it makes me extremely happy. ok - its me.

from now on, i shall cut down on my food expenses and redivert the funds into my clothing etc etc. secondly, my wardrobe shall have a complete makeover, its getting too full and my clever suggestion of turning my entire room into a walk-in wardrobe (hanging bamboo sticks across my bedroom, cool huh. the color of clothes in my wardrobe is getting simply too boring and i need a color change, but currently still looking for inspiration. next next, i have already decided on the next DIY hair dye i shall use, courtesy of the advice of my image consultant - darren. haha..it shall be the sand beige color, i chose it over the cool ash cos it looked too cold and i think im more suited to warmer color, like me? dun vomit..haha

im doing fine hur. no mention of school at all! whee..and im seriously looking forward to the bbq next sat, the excursion im gg to have with my mentees (not really) and of course to double o during the term vacation, got vouchers la. and seriously, im lucky to be able to get along v well with my mentees and they seem perfectly problemless - i hope.

back to sch work! lagging (finally i mentioned it)

2005-09-02T01:08:00.000-07:00

- whee -

im just happy! firstly its the first which means my allowance..argh been v broke recently man dunno y also, and i've got my mini..not the ipod but the uob mini..its so cutee k..trust me, u shld get it too. the superstar thingy was touching although i dun really like the kelvin but come to think of it again, its the ''touching'' factor that really counts..he came a long way, a difficult one i can say, it takes humongous amount of courage to overcome any physical disability, in my view, the worst enemy will be the person himself, he needs to come to term of who he really is. its not easy trust me, even a normal person could still be constantly searching for this simple yet difficult question much less an handicap. cheers for his courage to say the least.

well, it goes to show no matter how hard the route ahead will be, as long as u are willing to take the first step and try, u always will have the chance to succeed in life. mine definitely pale in comparison but the ''not so smooth'' route i had taken defin made me appreciate things much better and mentally tougher

ciao.

2005-08-28T23:05:00.000-07:00

-my poem-

thanks twin for the poem that u composed in 3mins, even faster than cooking maggi mee (indirectly implying that u are talented ok) haha...i love the poem..wheee cheerios!

Whoever thought I would have found my twin
In a place as crappy as CPF?
Where customers are stupid and perverted
Not loud enough and far too deaf

Anyway my twin, evil as he may seem
Is one of the salvations of my ordeal
Without his blue fishball and blue ba zhang
My wounds from hell would never have healed

Hail the president of scandal-us club
The di san zhe of me and seok chin
My nemesis, my evil twin
ALVIN ALVIN ALVIN!

remember to apply the copyright thingy k...haha

2005-08-27T08:05:00.000-07:00

- judgement -

how many of us are guilty of pre judging people? one of my lecturers mentioned, if you see a lecturer with this grumpy and frowning face the whole day, what would be the first impression that come straight into ur mind? he is cold, unfriendly, highly irritated, and wad more hate his job...well i guess most of us would have at least have 1 of the impression...mmm i guess its natural. well the truth might actually be exactly the opposite, he may love his job, friendly and a warm person just that he has this chronic backache that casued him to have this frompy look. makes real sense! i have countless people making pass comments or remarks on people that we hardly know or worst still, dunno at all. what right do we have to pass such baseless comments? none.

i would dare say most of us would at some point or another be guilty of such behavior, me not excluded. therefore the next time, before u wan to make any comment on a person, think again

2005-08-23T09:43:00.000-07:00

- education -

had it managed to achieve its aim of producing capable, moral young people for the future of the country? it realli leaves me in serious doubt, capable it may be but moral? mm..*ponders seriously* ever wondered how did the scam of SIA occured? ppl with the brains but used it for the wrong purposes. well, in my 1 yr in uni, i have personally witnessed project group mates scooped to low hand tactics to obtain their goals - which is to fare better than their so called ''friends''. well, i have also heard many stories from many of my friends that this is prevalent and common in sch, well if education is just about producing academically well endowed students, it had done so. if character building is also part of it, im sorry but i think it had failed terribly. well, although it might just be the minority but it is sufficient for these few black sheeps to totally tarnish the image of the institution.

for me, before i lament on any sch assignments, tutorials, readings or exams!! i will always remind myself of the route that i took to be here. defin not an easy one and i really appreciate the opportunity to study. heh..well might be mundane at times, but one thing good is that i am learning something new everyday! just minus the exams please haha..

saw in the papers, today that there is this Iranian lady, carrying this slogan : nuclear energy is our obvious right. and hey, i agree..surprising? well well, after a chapter on International Relations and talking about realism, it made sense anyway, they did not sign any non proliferation treaty and who in the world can judge that the US are morally right to possess nuclear power while ''rouge'' states such as Korea DPR and Iran cant as they may misuse. the world is about perceptions.

kk..better be back to my books, lots of readings to catch up and i better do it early! ciao

2005-08-18T19:40:00.000-07:00

- untitled2 -

haha..cannot think of anything better, well, getting used to the mods im taking this sem, 3 of my mods sounds real similar even the texts are similar. can work both ways i think, hope is for the gD! anw, i really need to catch up on my readings and 1 thing i can confirm, im still in holiday mode lo cause today when the lect mentioned smth abt the reading written by ''Baylis'', the first thing that came to my mind was Baileys Irish Cream! whee..my fav alcoholic drink. yum yum..i think i shld drink it later before it expires! whee^^ i realise i like politics and socio cause both are subjects that i can observe and understand those happenings that happen around me..heh k bye for now

2005-08-15T22:15:00.000-07:00

trust - hard to gain, easy to lose, -how true can that be

reality is wad u seem to be, it might not necessarily be so. escaping from reality is not a option, its a choice. its the making the best of a situation that u live in that makes the difference.
heard over the radio - abt singlehood, i agree completely, self discovery is when u are single. finding myself, living the lifestyle i wan, and tts really me. this few sentences dun really flow but are just my random tots.

-madness-

ppl mugging in library frm day1 of school, maybe even before during the hols, madness? haha maybe something worse? well, peer pressure? maybe. for me nah..i dun realli care wad people do, i set my own pace to study. do the best i can and watever results i achieved is another matter cause i do not have regrets. for my last 2 sems, i can say tt. not outstanding results but no regrets nevertheless, as long as this continues, im pleased.

-thai-

sawadeekup....ka boon ka haha..100 baht sir, cannot, wah lau..heh

2005-08-12T00:49:00.000-07:00

- good, bad, worst -

wad a title! dunno how i got it anyway. well well, failure, dissapointment, agony, reflections, i guess these words sum up my feelings? yep!! that shall be it. well, after my emotions settled, i was back to my happy self by.......of course retail theraphy! haha..finally bought the niceeeeee nike shoes. im loving it, it looks prettier by the day, hr, min, sec...ok shall stop here.

hey peeps, tata will be back on mon! whee...thailand here i come

2005-08-10T00:06:00.000-07:00

-first day of skolah-

well after a fun filled 3mths of hols, its back to the books again..boo!! hmm..got to get myself ''orientated'' with where the lectures theatres are..kinda forgotten! haha... cant imagine rite?! first lecture was social research and methods..mm sounds boring *yawn* and is boring! i kept yawning thruout..haha wads new? boring wad not my fault.

-fireworks!! whee~~-

haha...2 entries a day! oh my..just back frm the fireworks thingy and it was really great! trust me it was one of the best fireworks experience tt i ever had though it was abit short. The whole experience was memorable to say the least. no no...should be exotic! firstly wad we did was get some stuff from carrefour which included cheese, apple cider and pizza. interesting hur~ following that we walked all the way up sheares bridge and we chose a spot to have our mini ''picnic''. Jene unexpectedly popped the ''champagne'' which caused quite a stir but it was hilarious ok! everyone was like looking at us! haha...it really felt new yorkie and parisie haha...anyway thats the life i want to live...well well the fireworks was marvellous. the whole atmosphere, the whole sky lited up like theres no tomorrow ''abit over'' haha..but the 2 fireworks that really captivated me were the fine and dazzling gold sparks that rained over the entire skyline, the other was similar in style but in a more disorderly fashion. those 2 were so amazingly beautiful. now closing my eyes. the images could simply be played in my mind.

following that we walked all the way to marina bay. my first time! haha..i din noe it could be reached my foot and we set by the riverside. with live band playing behind us and the water lashing onto the riverbed, it was simply awesome!! hey! the red beret police that lined the entire route to the marina bay mrt were extremely irritating! we were like highly wanted criminals and were like being lead to holocaust or smth like tt...pls la! wad will tourists think man. worst still, the police could still say ''hey ppl..in twos please'' arrrgh couldnt stand..i told darren must we put our fingers on our lips? ''wad if im single? must i raise my hand to tell the police that i came alone, and mr policeman can u help me find a partner? idiots!! it just put a slight damper to an amazing nite! wheeeee...i nv felt so ''protected''...yea rite...booo...haha

2005-08-04T10:06:00.000-07:00

-I Luv Willy Wonker!-

charlie and the choco factory! i've not read the ronald dahl book and this movie really made me wan to buy it...where can i find the ommpa lummpa MV? oh my the ''I love Willy Wonker...'' is stuck in my head and imagine dancing the dance in any club, oh my...i think it will be the most retro and in dance steps! haha...''woOOoG...ka''! ''Bonnnng" - glass elevator haha....oh no im crazy! i always am anyway..okok a great movie in my opinion..a few scenes actually touched me, first would be when charlie willingly gave up the chance to go to the choco factory knowing that he could exchange it for quite abit of cash, although he had a hard hard time looking for the golden ticket, the selflessness, unselfishness, i think theres something where we could all learn from. the other would also be when willy wonker being treated by his dentist dad, eventually recognising his son from his set of teeth - similar to mine! hahaha...cannot imagine the mouth being stretched by barbed wires?!?! izzit real? ok..well *touching i suppose...lastly the company i had yday was so compatible with the movie, why? cause.....equally mad.

2005-08-02T00:41:00.000-07:00

happy

just 1 word to sum up my feelings. today i shall abandon my philosophical side of me and unleash the himbo in me...wahahhaha. kk i simply love my last 2 weeks of my hols - its so enjoyable. whee~
this goes to prove rite, ur hols need not be long. k actually i quite enjoyed and missed the time when im working cos of the ppl ~~

firstly congrats to TWIN!! she is attached...whee~ happy for her . im so packed these days but i find it v fulfilling, and wad a gd time to come as well cos its near the end of hols which mean another crazy 3 mths before i could rest again. im gg msia tomorrow!! whee...hope can get some gd buys! oh ya...its also scandal-us week which mean 2 gatherings, bbq plus movie? hopefully both are successful. and im gg thailand next week!! yep during the first week of school...haha so fun!! ponning sch for fun! so excited abt the trip, think it has been 8 yrs since i last went to thailand - land of shopping!

k tts all for now! bye peepzs...

2005-07-28T11:00:00.000-07:00

-troubles-

who doesnt have? its part and parcel of life i guess...school, family, friends, relationship, wads new? to think of it, the reason they form part of ur troubles would be beacause they are dear to u or else y would u bother. on hindsight, its just a matter of handling that really matters ultimately. if handled in a proper frame of mind and with appropriate actions, the matter will be resolved and u will be much more equipped should a similar situation arises again. it really is a process of learning and i've really learnt alot thru these years...sometimes gotta learn it the hard way but well u'll never forget it i suppose

was browsing a book frm central library and came across a nice stanza frm Victorian Poetry by Robert Browning:

How say you? Let us, O my dove,
Let us be unashamed of soul,
As earth lies bare to heaven above,
How is it under our control
To love or not to love?

i love poetry by the way, the way it delves into ur inner self with inncredibly simple yet impactful words that really illustrates your feeling. im learning to write poetry -new found interest- hope to make my debut soon..hahhaha

sch gonna reopen soon and saw many of my frenzs sank into the depression associated with sch. for me, mixed feelings actually, this sem gonna be harder without doubt with 2 mods needing stats. gotta work hard to make sure my cap doesnt drop - i really hope. sometimes i wan sch, sometimes i dun...hahahaha im mad again bleahhhh

2005-07-23T15:50:00.000-07:00

-post camp mortem-

haha..wad a duh title but i like!! oh well, its me...initially i thought i wasnt a camp person which still stands haha..but i truly enjoyed myself throughout the entire camp. it was a v meaningful and well organised camp to start off with. thanks to all the stuff esp tremandy, puay san and all the other camp crew!!! the ''MAD'' - make a difference camp is a mentor training camp, a pre requiste for one to be mentor. I think i've chosen a very fruitful and meaningful cca - to befriend a mentee and to provide guidance and to lend a listening ear to someone...on a sidenote, a mentor needs to heard as well but well...oops

there are many memorable moments in the camp, but i shall highlight some special moments. there was this game where we are supposed to sit on the lap of each teamate in a circle and see which group last the longest without falling..the trick to this game would be to trust each other by putting all your weight on ur frenz + much perserverance. our grp emerged winners! the rationale would be to build trust and support among group mates which is vital in our mentoring journey..umm meaningful

the other activity involves exchanging 2 of our most valuable possession. u shld have guessed it..hp and wallet! the other party will have full access of everything inside. my partner although in my team but we are not close. dun have the natural bond. we trusted each other so we just looked into each other wallet! nth much actually. twin! he saw the ''ba zhang'' photo u drew for me! haha..anw my wallet v empty nth much...this activity may seem meaningless right but it isnt, in fact i think it is the most meaningful. it was to incaculate that we as mentors must protect ourselves as well and not allow mentees to overstep certain boundaries. In these, our own privacy should be protected.

other activities include the nite games which we were supposed to clear 8 stations and by going to the station in the millipede position. haha..real fun but v humid! all the games require intense cooperation and teamwork to get thru! we got in 2nd to prove that our grp are nocturnal animals caused we flunged in the day. got zero balloons hence no points to bid for our lunch!! argghhzz..i dun wan to be poor..haha..cos we had 510 points we used 500 for 2 stupid packs of titbits and left with 10 miserable points..and we withdrew from the food auction and played the polar bear/hunter game..haha i being *evil* always started bidding with the 10 points and after that continue to be indulged in our own world!

the first night activities include trustfall. trust me, its real fun but we almost dropped my last team mate but its not my fault..cos he didnt have full trust in us by bending his legs and most of his body weight felt on me..all concentrate at his back. the impt key to this is to divide the weight equally so u would be caught. anw, it was a near miss but it made us realise this impt lesson..other memorable ones include untangling ourselves blind-folded, fixing the lego blind folded, 3 of us are allowed to talk but not see, while those outside are allowed to see but not talk..im so fortunate compared to those blind or mute...how many times we overlook such simple but important things..an important realisation indeed..

by one of the counsellor '' building a relationship with a mentee is just like any other relationship..be it bgr, friendship etc. we all have this ability to do so...'' how true...

SMP traditional game - its this game where boxes are drawn and many rules drawn up. supposed to cross this river without falling into it where there are ''crocodiles''. whenever someone falls into it or a rule is breached, the entire group will have to start all over again. its a test of perserverance and determination plus lots and lots of teamwork cause the goal is to get the entire group of 100 over to the other side of the rive. not an easy task although it seems easy. we took abt 4 hrs plus to accomplish this mammoth task! the sense of satisfaction is undescrible...

lastly, how can i forget the frenzs i made in this camp! they are really fun ppl just like the frenzs i made at cpf! i'll nv forget the ti ti game we played while waiting for the river game and the animal game tt we played in our hotel room at 430am? we were high on lack of slp plus madness!! haha really glad knowing u guys..u've really made this camp a truly memorable one..

ps: me and my angel wrote the same thing for the survey; the question:"if u were a word, what would u be?" we had the same reply and it was: ''huh?'' how coincidental could that be...

finally thanks saife, weijie, fushan, jonas, yunru, clara, li xian, june, neela!!! CTSS!! haha...glad i posted to a sch near my sch..oops rhymes!

wad an eventful holiday i had! i never expected mine to be so fulfilling and meaningful. firstly the friends i made at cpf..this was the most unexpected as after abt 1 mth plus we became close friends and the fun that i had which seriously overshadowed the mundaness of the job. but the job was also a gd experience and eye opener. Im really glad as it really help me tide over this long holidays or else i would be so broke.. 2nd i managed to find my long lost twin!! haha...we seriously think alike in almost everything except in instances where the voltage level is low...LOL!! i really love our gatherings where we had so much fun and i really hope this will go on...for siti and twin!*exco* members..better noe wad to do huh..or else u shall face the boot! hahaha....oops i didnt take my medicine

wad a long entry!

2005-07-19T00:42:00.000-07:00

-untitled-

life is full of surprises, no doubt
but mine's the form of poor results
thanks, but thats something i can do without
and crying out loud dun help

just 1 short stanza..haha too lazy to think and have some kinda of mental block. but seriously for me i have more uncertainty in my life than any surprises. uncertain of things, people and myself. managed to overcome some esp myself, but there are certainly many things that are beyond my control such as people and happenings around me. well...life is uncertain i suppose, u never noe wad will happen the next day, so treasure everything u have today.

2005-07-17T16:50:00.000-07:00

- the never satisfied human -

are we created like that? nature or nurtured? hmm..*ponders* the rich wants to get richer, the not so well off wants to have a better life, who doesnt? the plump wants to be slim, the thin wants to be thinner till they look like the supermodels or pop stars..dreams and ambitions are necessary or there would not be any room for self improvement, courage to pursue dreams and the passion for life would start to diminish...

however, we shld never be obsessed with it or it will cause unimaginable consequences. unscrupulous, conspiracy, hypocrisy, pretence, losing ur conscience are just some...the list goes on

i am appreciative with what I have...i couldnt ask for more. dun compare yourself with others or you will never be happy. goals are essential, it gives u the motivation to try to better yourself, the challenge to be a better person. warning - over indulgence harms..heh

haha...philosophical me resurfaces again!

''turtle in the hard shell..turtle power.." wahhaha...a tribute

2005-07-17T00:43:00.000-07:00

- my last day in cpf -

mixed feelings actually. realised that cpf is no different frm army. inefficient organisation managed by useless people who really suxs. sometimes i wonder how they really made it to their current post they are holding. *crap* i mean the govt top up - couldnt they forecast the crowd due to the ''rumored'' deadline? couldnt they put more seats? couldnt they open more counters?

and please stop the squabbling in front of old folks! i know u are all useless but do you know there is something known as pride. i doubt. you do not have to highlighten ur incapability in front of the old folks by having heated arguments. do you noe that the cisco guard is luffing away at u all - senior management. i can do a better job. >.- cos ur standard is way too low

i can wake up later!! hooray! no more early morning rush for the train. no more everything! i can see the afternoon sun! i can swim as and when i wish! i can go for executive set lunches, high teas and wadever = freedom! sounds tai tai..haha but wait i didnt include spa..

but i will miss the laughter, the fun we have, the company i have...the scandals!! i really hope the scandal-us club will go on strong. as long as im the prez, i will keep it going...

2005-07-12T23:39:00.000-07:00

- a bus ride -

remembered watching a korean drama think its titled ''bus-stop'' one of the v few korean shows i watched. a touching show - about a bus captain who is passionate about his job and how he manages to find true love in his job. many a times, i like the solitutude when Im travelling in bus, it gives me a moment to think about things as well as to reflect on myself. I like the time I had to myself, that truely belongs to me. it gives me a chance to take a step back and observe things and people around me. every individual is unique and behind every face lies many stories, happiness and sadness. basically - everything.

the feeling of reality sinking in, just sitting back and all your troubles and stress just surfaces. the feeling is overwhelming. however recently this feeling is no longer as intense..perhaps even non existant, could this be a sign that my troubles have diminished considerably? or its just simply innate within me? i guess it should be the former..i do not feel as ''burdened'' as before, realise that my so called problems are really insignificant compared to the miseries of the world..

just some thoughts..my blog taking longer to write!

ciao

2005-07-10T13:12:00.000-07:00

a scandal-us day

had so much fun ydat! although the turnout was the smallest of the three outings we had so far but for me at least, it was the funnest!! my bet would be that the club members will get more exclusive. i dun ostracize but just group them according to ''clickable/non clickable'' haha...new term! its fun if the entire grp belongs to clickable!! so much more fun rather than to put on a false front! tiring la..and cannot really be myself = mad!

guess me,geri and sc are really mad! really really anyway dun think anyone will doubt us. the mrt trip was hilarious! i cant believe my disciple to come up with smth so crappy! omg...

fireworks!! i have a love hate relationship with you. the sparks make you realise how beautiful life can be if u choose to look at the bright side of things but well i dun like it the moment when the sparkles die down followed by a period of emptiness. I hate this feeling, although I know every good things in life will come to an end some day, but i just do not want it to come so soon. want it to last forever. fireworks mirror life. nothing last forever. no matter how beautiful it may be, it will come to and end someday. Perhaps this could be the reason i do not like clubbing, i do not like the ''empty'' period after the hype in clubs. I prefer tranquilty and peace appreciating the minutes details of life that are often neglected.

2005-07-09T15:24:00.000-07:00

- war of the worlds -

the movie suxs, reinforced my perception that brad pitt looks much better than tom cruise, and a sucky plot that involved running a marathon. plus the stupid aliens that really looked like yoda/predator and the stupid reason y they self destructed..steven spielberg is going downhill with this movie plus the showcase of Ny which didnt win the Olympic bid

well one scene that was worth mentioning would be the little girl who was told by her brother to fold her hands in front of her. It was done to calm her down cos of the massive destruction that she saw. she was told "you would not be harmed within this zone" this scene made me ponder *we are too prone to live within the comfort zones in our lives* once there are any changes, we would not be able to adjust to the circumstances. i admit i was once afraid of change, who isnt? I wished everything remain the same as before, but however reality is often not the case. changes do occur and we must learn to adapt and move on in life. dun dwell on things that had already happened, instead focus on the present and the future. *easier said than done* sighz heh.. but when u succeed, it will make you a stronger person..at least *mentally* heh...

am i living in bangkok? *sweltering heat*

2005-07-07T00:25:00.000-07:00

tinted glasses

should a pregnant women give birth out of wedlock be ostracized by society? should gays/lesbians be frowned upon? should you condemn a person when certain actions/words do not go well with you? heard from a friend that no matter how bad a person u think he/she is, there will still be a light in them that you should see. Instead of focusing on the negatives, why not see the postives in the negatives..

most of the times, people put on tinted glasses. even without interacting with them, they have already formed an opinion on that person by simply the first impression or even by the hearsay of the background of the person. no matter wad, i know it can be quite that difficult to totally ignore opinions but one should not be totally influenced by it. give people a chance, give urself a chance.

2005-07-06T23:57:00.000-07:00

a tribute - transformation

Beautiful is homely,
Her home is at Holland V,
She's abit crazy,
Not at all womanly

She thinks shes trendy,
Though she looks lousy,
Worse than ordinary,
Ultimately ugly.

the above poem sums up the craziness and crapness that my workplace is..its been so much fun and of course laughter. really more OG and the orientation i been through. frequent outings, endless banters and loads of laughter simply sum up the enjoyment i had in my temporary job. this was simply unimaginable and it had really been a v fulfilling holidays frm the outings, gatherings and friends that i have made during this short stint! real fun! its coming to an end soon and i will defin miss those days..heh..till den *yawn*

2005-07-05T23:55:00.000-07:00

me - a snapshot

life's tribulation
not an easy mission
pulled through with determination
plus abit of perserverance
builds up resilience
to live with optimism and exhilaration

a streak of rebellion
an act of defiance
dislike reliance
adore independence
overwhelming self confidence
without any arrogance

2005-07-04T22:52:00.000-07:00

"heal the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire human race...there are people dying if you care enough for the living, make a better place...for you and for me..."

ignore the controversies, scandals and ''drop-off'' nose but this song is really meaningful and if my memory serves me well..its frm the album black or white. recently read abt the live8 concert to relieve poverty..1 thing tt touched me would be that a life is lost in africa every 3secs. the snapping of fingers every 3sec is a reminder of the harsh and stark reality that is facing 3rd world countries...

moan abt the hassle, lament about the bustle..yet we forgot about the life essentials.
not a saint, neither an angel, just the cheepmunk in me, i want to be!

2005-07-03T23:35:00.000-07:00

hate snobs esp nus ones...booo!

2nd entry of the day! got this strong desire to voice out my displeasure..or rather thoughts..heh

- an unforgiving society -

so what if ppl do not achieve as much as what is expected of them? these expectations are constructed by society, family and peers..are you sure they are not successful then? bleah..wad rubbish! I strongly believe everyone is successful in their own way, their unique talents, their unique identity..u may be successful academically, - a high flyer - i applaud u for your achivements but does that make you a "greater" person? nah...if u believe so, slap yourself, i dun wan dirty my hands!

so what if ppl take a "longer" route to success? who are u to judge? realise here, people judge too far too often and are highly critical of things. why not take a step back and reflect upon themselves? they have stereotypes of how a person route shld be - be it in education or marriage..spare me all these! thats just not me..y shld one be bogged down by all the time scales set? by this age u must be in jc, this age u shld be in uni, this age u shld be working...loads of rubbish haha...worst still heard frm my frenz frenzs..that he saved up for his dowry in sec sch!? oh my goodness...am i in the 21 century? haha...they would have timline like by this age must have gf or else how to marry by 28....argh..cant stand!

perhaps i treasure freedom and value it greatly...

unconventional it may seem, untradtional it may be...but thats me! the one and only me..wahahaha

till den ciao...

2005-07-03T14:16:00.000-07:00

rainbow - the element in fairytale

a realist, not one to believe in fairytales. however i do indulge in my own fantasy world at times who doesnt? this quote just pop up in my mind "take life seriously but live it lightly.." meaningful hur hur...used to be serious and uptight but now...totally opposite poles..*sigh* haha...wheres my medicine? oh no..suddenly realise im crazy obsessed with quotes and stuffs...

back to rainbow. saw 2 rainbows side by side while in the bus. I just simply love rainbow cause it is the closest thing to fairytales..for me at least. somehow staring at it gives me the solace and comfort i find..so rare so precious in concrete singapore. in my old home in bedok..i remember how i used to be able to see the full rainbow frm cause the view is totally unobstructed, could even spend a few hours looking at it *totally engrossed* Wheres the pot of gold?! heh..the colors of rainbow represents the multi facets of life and the hope in each of it...

2005-07-02T01:30:00.000-07:00

Poem composed!

Treasure life's little gift
Or regrets it shall leave
Happiness - Life best gift
A smile or laughter it may give

cheesy rite...haha dun luff! anyway I came up with another 2 lines: Living in fantasy, checked by reality.....(awaiting inspiration to complete...)

had a drink with darren and jene (darren's frenz), its just amazing how we managed to have this engaging conversation considering i just knew her a few hours ago. perhaps its the similar mindset and mentality therefore can sort of click..this makes me think its not how long u noe a person, but its the thinking tt matters.

Mine is defin not the conventional and typical asian mindset tt most chinese have. Nothing wrong or stereotyping of that but its just simply not my style. Everyone is entitled to their opinion and thinking, just dun interfere in mine! heh...

tired but fun! ciao...

2005-07-01T00:05:00.000-07:00

My First Poem - Attempt

Dun luff! I remember during my primary school when writing autobiography where signatures and wishings are collected from classmates. I think Im the only few that dun have such fad thing..haha during my times - seems so long ago - there isnt even a thing called hp. pager (not sure whether its invented yet) heh..

Most common poem: Roses Are Red, Violets are Blue...(Y I love U, Only U noe) whahaha....2nd part is the remix version sshh...wahahaha

K. enough crapping. Im not talented in poems cause I hate writing descriptive essays and my imagination cannot run wild. Building castles in the air is a pre requiste but I cant. heh...really *envy* those who can come up with flowery language to descibe simple happenings around them. I am better off with factual essays...

Here I go: Treasure life little gifts, or regrets it shall leave.......(see get it? inspiration running out...cannot even complete another 2 more sentences) :X

to be cont...heh *yawn* ciao

2005-06-28T22:53:00.000-07:00

My Dream, my fuTure - sounds like a National Day slogan.

1. I want to be myself.
2. I want to be what my heart tells me.
3. I want to get a good education and land a challenging job.
4. I want my loved ones to be healthy and happy.
5. I want to be at the place where happiness and tranquaility could be found.+ breathtaking scenary!!!
Switzerland and CowSplace

Thats my dream for now at least. The future is too far to be seen...

2005-06-28T00:05:00.000-07:00

The Peace In You - Simple it may sound, Difficult it may be...to me at least

To find the peace in you is to be comfortable of who you really are. This process of self discovery is an ardous and winding journey for me. Many a times, I was befundled by this simple yet complicated question of who you actually are. Are you determined by the frenzs around u? Are you who you really are? Is sociey and peer pressure "constructing" u? To a certain extent and no doubt. the answer is yes. But are you living for urself or for others? are you achieving some things for yourself or cause of others? Are you following what others are doing so as to go with the flow?

Well for me, the answer is more of a No than a yes which means I live for myself. I am not one that is easily influenced by others cause I have faith in myself and lots of self belief! heh..u wan? but not to the extent of ignoring what others think. A balance must be struck. For me, I would take in all opinions and considerations but however the ultimate decision lies with me and never with the flow.

Modesty is a virtue!

1. Dun think by just speaking a few english words -------->>> you are highly educated
2. Dun think by just wearing a shawl and walking around Esplanade ------------->>>> you are sophisicated
3. Dun think by just speaking slang in front of gals while speaking to guys in broken english -------->>> you are highly desirable
4. Lastly dun make me puke cause your actions are disgusting!

Heh..I have split personality! One moment can be so himbolicious and the next can be so philosophical!!

till den..ciao need to catch up on my dear slp.......yay!!!

2005-06-27T22:58:00.000-07:00

Lost - the feeling Im afraid of

Its been a long long while since i had this feeling. The fear of losing someone so dear to me, the fear of someone going to somewhere far far away, the fear of nv seeing someone again. All these came back to me last night and what a long and traumatic night. The previous time was 12 yrs ago when i lost my god father due to cancer. This time round was my grandma. She had difficulty breathing and was panting very heavily. She insisted that she was alright while everyone could tell she wasnt..She slipped in and out of conscious and my heart broke when I saw her so thin and wobbly. The worst was that she did not know what was happening around her. She was still fine and well early the week when we attended a dinner together.

Of all my cousins, she doted me the most as she took care of me during my childhood years when my parents were working. She is v obstinate but she would only listen to my dad, one of my uncle and me. the rest she would turn a deaf ear to. I insisted she to be admitted to hospital and chided my uncles for carrying her the wrong way down the stairs.hEy, Im qualified k.heh but they wont let me. the expression on her face was haix she was in deep pain and agony but she wouldnt voice it out. I really adore and admire my grandma for her courage and toughness. she single handedly brought up 8 children as my grandpa passed away at a v young age. She went through lots of hardship.

My emotions overwhelmed me on the way to the hospital. I held her hands real tight. I dun wan to lose her. I told her to be strong. the past flooded my mind - the way she took care of me while im young. Although its 2 decades ago heh..but its still vivid in my mind. The way she took care of me while I was put under GE for my operation.

She must be sleeping now - just visited her. she appeared much better and I hope she could hear my wishes for her. Her birthday is this sunday. hope she gets well enough to celebrate it..*pray*

Treasure those around you - old fashion it may sound, meaningful it may be

2005-06-23T04:25:00.000-07:00

Intellectual Metrosexual Himbo - thAts wAt I wAn to bE!!

"Everybody should love themselves like a princess cause everyone is beautiful..." how true can that be from my idol Paris Hilton but who else...I think she is beautiful cause of her overwhelming self confidence and I truly believe it a confident person is an attractive person..oh no i wAn Paris Hilton Sheer >.-...wahaha

All the while I never thought I could be fake till the temp job I am currently doing. ''Thank you for calling, have a nice day. Goodbye..." this just rant off my mouth like an answering machine..of cause this could never be sincere as you have to say this to every member irregardless of their xxxxxxxxx attitude....I believe in being truthful to yourself and others so its actually a revelation that I could actually do that! heh...

till den..ciao! *yawn*

2005-06-21T23:14:00.000-07:00

my 2nd attempt in blogging! my interest is kinda rekindled but maybe only momentarily! oh my the first was an ultimate disaster! i could not believe that i actually chronically write my everyday ordinary happenings..its so boring! i wont bear to read it much lest other people. Its so unlike me cause i hate to account to anyone...

customer service officer, now i understand ur difficulties and the abuses hurled at u, the scoldings and unruly customers that think that the whole wide world owed them a living...wat a joke! the mentally unsound just like me..and of cos the stupid old man! i wont forget u..puiz haha

anyway after incident, i would be able to react with it happens again. I think these 3 lines would be more than sufficient to irritate those bastards! oops...heh

1. Sorry, sir. Please do not use any personal remarks on me.
2. Sorry, sir. If u continue I would have to hang up the call.
3. Sorry sir. Thank you for calling, have a nice day. Goodbye

du...................du............du................hahahhahhahaha

its so dammm cool....till den heh *yawn*